Well intentions have gone out the window. I think I'm going to and then something different comes along or gets in the way. For my sanity I think I'm going to just start remembering I fly by the seat of my pants more days then not. Life gets hectic even when all you've done is sit on the couch playing with yarn all day. I would say I'm going to try harder but I always say that and disappoint myself so I wont say it anymore (well at least for a week or so).
So life has been busy, no surprise. Easter we had a great surprise Thomas' Dad came to visit. It had been almost 5 years since we saw him last. We had a great week together and Annika even warmed up to him by the end of the week. She is still questioning me about his house and his pool and if he will fill it up before we get there next summer, boy is she going to be shocked to find out its not her little kiddie pool!
Spring/summer is still arriving here so its been try to make the yard pretty time. I'm thinking the neighbors are wondering what the light is in the kitchen all night, its a GROW LIGHT!!! I was a little slow this year and needed some help. I have my morning glories sprouting, so now I just need to get my new planters ready. Today I got the pansies, petunias and tomatoes planted. Hopefully with some help this weekend I can get the old laundry tub painted and planted for the tomatoes also. Hard part is after trying to be wonder woman and get so much beautifying done I severely sprained my pectoral muscles on both sides of my chest.
After moving 3000 pounds of rock, which was in 50 pound bags. I moved it from the pallets at the store to the car, from the car to the driveway, from the driveway to the yard, and then had to dump them all out in their places. Things are looking great but my arms don't go over my head, oh wait they don't like me to do much at all. Lifting a clothes basket or 30 pound kid is excruciating. Bonus to all this after 5 hours in the ER found out I'm healthy, my heart works great (2 EKGS and lots of blood to prove it), I don't have blood clots (chest xray and ultrasounds on both legs) and my blood pressure is excellent ( I have the bruises from the auto cuff). So if this weather will hold and I can keep stretching maybe by mothers day ill be back to me.
The kids have been soaking up every ray of sunshine they can. We love sun!!!! They have tolerated the cloudy windy days also, and after last night I have a feeling that Ulrik will be out in the rain. In front of our house is a hill with a drainage ditch across the bottom. This is made extra swampy by our sump pump draining there. Ulrik has figured out how to safely navigate through this muck with his bike without wiping out. Now he is working on how to jump the sump hose and head down the ditch without having to lift his bike over it. Linnea joined in this task also. I'm sure my laundry pile is going to be increasing a bit! Summer vacation starts in 14 days, I am trying to plan some small day trips to parts of our state that can be interesting. And I also volunteered to help out with Vacation Bible School. I'm looking forward to both items.
Mothers day is approaching quickly. On Sunday the 6th mothers such as myself have our own day of recognition. It is International Bereaved Mothers Day. For all he mothers of baby's lost. I'm hoping the weather will hold to be able to sail a sky lantern at dusk. I'm not sure where I'm going to set this off, after looking at the cemetery its going to have to be very calm to not have to worry about the trees. Hopefully it will work out well otherwise maybe at dawn. Mothers day is always a bittersweet holiday because of Zachary. But I also have to think of my other beautiful children. Its wonderful to know now that on the 6th I can concentrate on Zachary and on the 13th celebrate with the other kids. For my first mothers day after Zachary, Thomas gave me a ring it says MOM on the outside and has a row of diamonds on top. It is now welded to my new wedding ring. It has been my constant ring. Its nothing extravagant but it means so much to me. Possibly even more then the emerald ring he also gave me that day. Its just a constant reminder of all we went through to get to that day, to today and tomorrow and so on........
