Wednesday, January 23, 2013

Juggling can be painful.............

Wow, how many balls can you keep juggling at once?  I personally can not juggle real balls, not a prayer!  With my vertical imbalance I'm lucky I can stay standing some days.  But apparently I'm quite adept at "juggling."  My skills will be seriously put to the test in the next weeks.
         2 weeks ago my Mom went in for her physical, she had mentioned a change in a old scar on her breast but just left it alone for the holidays. The mammogram was clear, but the doctor opted for additionally testing.  A ultrasound saw something, so then onto a biopsy.  The biopsy revealed it was cancerous.  Then started a whirlwind of appointments and testing.  A MRI confirmed there was a mass, over 6cm.  Ok, next step deciding on a single or double mastectomy.  Mom said "I have no attachment to these things, take them away." Ok, double it is.  So then came more waiting and finally surgery yesterday.  Well all said and done, there was cancer in both breasts.  The left one had just not been detected on any of the imaging.  THANK YOU ANGELS for helping push things in the right direction.  Now we head into recovery mode.  As Mom was laying in the hospital bed last night in and out of it, we knew she was going to be fine when she was still able to crack a one liner and flip me off.  Hoping today she will be more awake and coherent and able to get up and move a bit.  We will not know till the 6th of February if she will need chemo or not, but we will throw that ball into the air to juggle if necessary.  Its going to be a interesting few weeks as Mom enjoys sitting still, but isn't all about being the patient.  She will just have to accept this and enjoy it.  Shes earned it. 
             Juggling the tween, in 2 more days Linnea will officially be a teenager.  Officially she will be there, technically I think we have been there since September when school started.  She has her moments when I see glimpses of my little flower, giggly, sweet, silly, and just a plain goofball.  Then there's the days of her tough girl attitude, loud music and growing up.  She loves her 80's hard rock, her dark clothes, and hiding in her room.  Such a adjustment.....
           Juggling the preschooler............. Attitude Annika, so opinionated.  She knows what she wants and she is not afraid to tell you.  She has nothing wrong with calling you names to get it.  She is becoming very familiar with a kitchen wall!  I don't know if it is added stress at home or if something has changed with her kidney reflux.  We have had almost 1 or 2 accidents a day and this has not been a problem since she was potty trained.  I changed her appointment to sooner to meet with the doctor about surgery.  So throw another ball in the air, because its looking sooner then later.
            Juggling the boy, there 's not much to juggle here.  Other then his energy and want for yet another Skylander, Ulrik is such a easy keeper.  He is helpful, quiet, understanding.  He looks so forward to every moment he gets to play the Wii.  To run to the store with just me, to share a secret treat between us. He really enjoys when we get to sit and read before bed.  I feel badly when it doesn't work out to give him this quiet time together.  But yet he just keeps rolling along with it all.  Oh I hope HIS teenage years stay this easy!
         Juggling the husband............ We have been dealing with Thomas and his acid reflux for awhile.  It has gotten to be plain annoying!! He decided the other day to "screw it" if the medicine isn't working then fine I'm not going to take it.  So today it off to the "gag me with a spoon" doctor to see if things have changed.  So............am I looking at the possibility of a third surgery for the year?? I have a feeling definitely more doctoring. UGH!
I'm trying to keep sane, while juggling. I painted half the kitchen yesterday while waiting to hear how Mom was.  I think I might just have to go get the paint to finish the other half tomorrow.  Ive got the bathroom to paint still, but Ive been stalling on that one, so I can change things a bit.  New cabinet and light take a little extra time and money.  Annika and Ulrik especially love to craft with me.  I found a salad spinner for under 5 bucks at IKEA.  They have been patiently waiting to try to make some spin art crafts of sort.  I'm looking forward to it also.  We just made our donation for the upcoming IRIS fundraiser.  Ulrik and Annika had a blast helping to pick out fleece and stuff our "Hooters"  I hope everyone enjoys them. 
Juggling, I have Moms recovery and subsequent care.
Juggling, Linnea becoming a teenager
Juggling, Annika and her kidneys
Juggling, Time for Ulrik
Juggling, Thomas and the acid
Juggling, every ones schedules
Juggling, Zacharys 14th heavenly birthday
Juggling, Juggling, Juggling.


You have to accept whatever comes and the only important thing is that you meet it with courage and with the best that you have to give.
Eleanor Roosevelt




A couch full of Hooters



Our Pinterest snow balls
 
 


 


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